Well here I am just about 5 weeks from having our baby girl. Stretch marks and all. This was taken last night at 34 weeks 3 days. So many emotions have emerged from me lately. I am anxious for her arrival but nervous at the same time. I have dreams of her delivery. How strange it will be to have another little baby in the house again. Its been 12 yrs since we have had a little girl. In that sense I am so excited to see her little face and hold her tiny hand.
I have gone through the house with the intentions of getting the house in order. But I feel like I am at a stand still. Of course we can clean the house to prepare it for her arrival. But I want to do so much more. We are very limited by finances that it makes it nearly impossible to even think about modernizing the kitchen or bathroom. Forget about the livingroom or porch that needs remodeling. We struggle with keeping utilities up and running, forget about upgrading. What I really could use is some help and inspiration to get by. I am far from creative. Discouraged!
As far as preparing for the baby, we are 95% ready I guess. I mean, what else is needed besides a bed, diapers, car seat and love? As for food, I breastfeed until they won't anymore. Well we have the car seat, bedding, swing, high chair, stroller, clothes and a few other ods and ends of things. I do not have one diaper! What am I waiting for? Well I am kinda hoping thats what people bring when they visit. Or if they ask what we need I can say diapers and wipes. I enjoyed picking out all her little clothes myself. I love Carters and Children's Place clothes. Oh those little dresses are just so cute! She will be a princess for sure! I have a fetish for pink and brown anything. I am sure she will learn to hate it. But for now, I love it!
I have been obsessed with home birth/water births lately. I have done plenty of research, watched tons of YouTube videos, talked with people, been supported by my midwife and of course my husband. I have been talking very closely with a friend of mine who has been delivery babies for many years. She has agreed to deliver our baby at home. I am excited about the idea of having the delivery of my choice. The thought of being hooked up to machines and monitors and tubes and nurses hounding me every 15 min turns my stomach. With such a healthy pregnancy I dont see why a home birth wouldn't work out. Its still up in the air so more to come on that subject.
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